I breathe deeply, and certainty enters into me like light, like a piece of science, and curious music seems to hum inside my fingers.
Is there a single person on whom I can press belief? No sir. All I can do is say, Here’s how it went. Here’s what I saw. I’ve been there and am going back. Make of it what you will. ~Leif Enger, Peace Like A River.
You wouldn’t believe me if I told you. You probably wouldn’t even have believed me had you been there. But sometimes, the combination of weather and circumstance and near perfect humanity will leave you feeling like you’ve witnessed a miracle. And I needed one in the worst way.
Not because of anything insurmountable but mostly because I’m like you—a regular old unbeliever.
I doubt, I whine. My faith fades like it’s been washed in bleach.
I’m always teetering, falling, flailing. Losing my grip.
But, then grace overwhelms.
Mercy rains down.
Beauty breaks in.
The sun pours out its extravagant light on every last thing.
We are stewards of a string of magnificent moments in a land that is fairer than day.
And we’re not even home yet.
I believe. Lord, help my unbelief.
Jennifer says
Sooo beautiful! Thank you for sharing your miracle, your faith and that string of magnificent moments.
Linda says
It is so wonderfully amazing hos His love shines through in so many ways. Asn how that brings us closer when we feel so far away.
Cindy Hancock says
Thank you, Edie, for sharing that glimpse of heaven you experienced this weekend. I, too, struggle with little faith. I know that I know, and I still wish I would hold fast to that faith. God knows our struggles and still loves us with unconditional love. Have a blessed and peacefilled week!
Learning to trust,
Cindy
Sara says
One of my favorite books ever! Our dog, Swede, was named after the little girl Leif wove in “Peace Like a River”. That final description of arriving….ahhhh. Your photos have that feeling, too. Thanks for sharing a bit of breathing room. Lovely.
Lacey says
Beautiful, Edie! Beautiful pictures, beautiful words, Thanks for reminding us that we can find the glorious in the everyday!
Elizabeth says
Beautiful!
Kelly says
These are the types of posts that make me eager to get my hand on that book He is helping you write 🙂 I mean that in a very loving and encouraging way Edie!!!
Michelle says
Kelly, I see it too! What a marvelous gift he is giving.
Kristen Strong says
Oh Edie. Breathtaking, grace-giving. LOVE.
Kim says
Yes. Just…yes. Thank you.
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Julia says
Thank you for the passage from the book you shared. I have not heard of it, so I am going to check on it today. Hoping to find it in paper 🙂
Your words & pictures compliment each other perfectly.
I, like Kelly, am eager to read your book.
Beautiful weekend.
Thank you for sharing
Have a wonderful day 🙂
Edie Wadsworth says
One of the best books I’ve ever read, Julia.
SO SO good.
xoxo
hopeinbrazil says
Lovely post, Edie! We live in a beautiful, broken world. Sometimes the brokenness overwhelms us, but at other times Jesus gives us glimpses of His beauty that knock us off our feet. Both the beauty and the brokenness make us all the more eager for Heaven.
CathyC says
Edie, I am shocked that you struggle with your faith too. Lately I am the one to do that, but I’m good right now. We are all the same with faith it seems. That is reassuring to me believe it or not. Your words are beautiful. Yes, we truly are witnessing miracles everyday.
And no, I don’t think you are like me. You are far wiser than I am, and that’s why I come to this space of yours. To soak up some wisdom wrapped in beautiful words.
Edie Wadsworth says
The old unbeliever is always creeping in.
But He is stronger still.
Much love.
xoxo
Rachel says
Stunning. May your faith comfort you like a warm blanket on a rainy day.
Edie Wadsworth says
Perfect!
Lisa says
Beautiful! Really wish now that I had figured out how to stow away in your car. I could have used a good dose of that this weekend.
Edie Wadsworth says
Come on, Lisa!
michelle says
Thank you for being so real. It is beautiful!
kari says
I felt that way this weekend too. Like everything was just beautiful and miraculous and sublime. My girls were loving to one another, no arguing, while we enjoyed the beautiful spring weather with a cool breeze in the air. I kept looking around me to see if anyone else felt the love of God like I did in the atmosphere. So palpable!
Edie Wadsworth says
Sometimes the beauty just overwhelms, doesn’t it?
xoxo
Julie in Michigan says
I see lots and lots of beauty in this post. Gosh, breathe taking!
Darlene says
Absolutely, beautiful! You are so lucky and amazing! Thank you for the wonderful post on this Monday morning 😊
Suzy Field says
Thank you for the lovely post and the reminder to find beauty wherever we are <3
Jennifer says
Edie, that is absolutely beautiful! I have days like that and all you want is some affirmation, a sign from above, that you are worthy and that all is awesome around you, we just have to believe and open our eyes wider and see all the glory that God has provided us.
Thanks for your writing and photos, keep up the great work. And thanks for sharing your like with us.
Edie Wadsworth says
Yes, eyes wide open!
Bless you and thanks so much.
🙂
chrissi says
We are stewards of a string of magnificent moments in a land that is fairer than day…..just so beautiful. You are such a gift. Thank you♥
Edie Wadsworth says
Awww, thanks, Chrissi.
Mucho love.
xoxo
Becki says
….and we’re not even home yet…..beautiful
Edie Wadsworth says
Thank you so much, Becki.
xoxo
Lynn says
That is one beautiful place you have there! Something about that first picture makes me think of where the Hobbits live in Lord of the Rings….and I mean that as a compliment! Just gorgeous…..makes me want to go there 🙂
Edie Wadsworth says
Well, I’ve always envied the Hobbit’s house!!
🙂
Liz says
Probably my favorite novel of all time…okay, a three way tie with To Kill a Mockingbird and The Great Divorce. Leif Enger is actually a family friend of ours and such a dear, sweet, inventive man. Thanks for sharing!
Edie Wadsworth says
I would have to agree, Liz! And how cool that you know him.
What a beautiful book!
xoxo
Joanna says
Amen, sister. All of us going through life doubting like Thomas, denying like Peter, seeking our own glory like the arguing 12, or like Martha, too busy to choose the one good thing….
“I believe, but help my unbelief.” –how I have always so deeply treasured those words…
Keep basking in His undeserved grace.
Growing with you, Joanna
Janette Gray says
Lovely, isnt it amazing how God knows when we need a glimpse of the beauty he has created? Thanks for sharing, Edie. You are an inspiration to me as another mom that gave up the coorporate world to be with my kids full time!
Julie says
Love this Edie, it mimics my heart’s rhythm to a T.
Tasha says
Love your honesty.
Praying that ya’ll are safe during all the storms that are continuing to cross the country.
Olivia says
You don’t know me and I don’t know you. But I stumbled onto your blog and this post is beautifully written. I am also “teetering, falling, flailing. Losing my grip.” Your words are true and real and filled with hope. Thank you for the hope.
patty says
um. so. soooooo. beautiful.
that is all.
xo
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Ruth says
Love and feel these words burning in my own heart. Help my unbelief.
amy says
wow, this is a little bit of grace right on my computer. Seriously I need to copy this and keep it close to me. You have no idea what grace it is to know that other believer’s have doubts too.
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Jennifer says
That is one of my favorite books, too. Thank you as always for sharing your thoughts and prayers.
Sharon O says
Beautiful pictures. so calming and relaxing. the words are great too.
Sharon O says
Beautiful pictures. so calming and relaxing. the words are great too.
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