I was pregnant with her during my last year of residency, which means, she learned early to be a fighter. During the first year of her life, I adjusted to a new baby, a new marriage, a new job, and a new mortgage in a new town. I worked weekend nights as an ER doctor in a small town and stayed home with her during the week. I was able to nurse her until she was six months old, notwithstanding the four episodes of miserable mastitis, that tempted me to stop after 4 weeks.
She was always a spit fire. She cried for hours in the evenings and wouldn’t go to sleep unless I laid with her in her room every night. She rattled me and despite the fact that she was my third child, she pummeled my mothering self-esteem. I read books on parenting as fast as I could read them, but in the heat of her red-faced fits, nothing ever seemed to work.
But, oh was she charming.
She had gorgeous blond curly hair, which she twirled with one hand, while she drank her “chocolatey”, as she affectionately called her chocolate milk, in the other.
When she was four, we thought it might help her stubborn streak if we tried soccer.
During her first game, she stood in the middle of the field screaming bloody murder. The coach and I ran to her, hoping she that by the sound of her screams, she hadn’t ruptured internal organs, or some other such serious injury. When we asked her what was wrong, she said, “EVERYDODY’S JUST RUNNING SO FAST AND KICKING AND IT GETS ME MAD!”. Yes, my dear, that’s what they call soccer.
So, we took her to ballet and prayed she didn’t get kicked out.
Then, the years at home twisted both our hearts inside out. We fought and cried and stood our ground until we learned to give in and forgive and give our ground away.
Today, I couldn’t be more surprised and more proud of her tenderness. She’s quick to see her fault, quick to say I’m sorry, and always finding a reason to laugh. She LOVES babies and dogs and is so talented with her hands. She’s a dancer extraordinaire and has a creative streak a mile wide. All those years of stubborn heartache have come to this—to a thirteen year old who is full of grace.
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I can’t remember my life before her. She has always been my girl. I was 22 years old when she was born, a mere babe myself, and I toted her to biochemistry with me when she was a week old. She went through a lot of schooling with me and now we study her nursing together and I can’t fathom how the years roll on. She is the girl with my smile and my eyes and the oldest one, who bears the brunt of my hard fought learning. We have had our share of heartaches, her and I, but the depths of what we have forged together through tears and loss and joy and laughter, can never be plumbed.
Her voice and her smile melt my heart and she has a way of knowing and forgiving that are way beyond her years. She has an old soul and a generous streak and incredible eyes.
She is the funniest girl, and yet, wise and discerning.
I am so blessed to be her momma, to share in her story, to watch as she grows into a woman full of grace.
These two middle girls of mine are similar in so many ways—it’s only fitting that their birthdays are together.
I pray they always lean on each other and learn early that there’s nothing in this world like a sister.
And I pray they learn live always from a place gratitude, eager to serve and love and forgive.
Happy Birthday, girls. You make me look like I know what I’m doing, when we all know that I’m just fumbling around in the dark, hoping and praying for grace.
May you stay forever young.
I love you,
Momma
Edie, I love reading you as I have my morning coffee. Your older daughter is stunning. You have a beautiful family.
Thank you for sharing your family with us! They are beautiful as are you! Happy Birthday girls!
Happy birthday to your beautiful girls. I know they are beautiful inside as well. Do they share the same birthday? My oldest and youngest are five days apart.
Edie-this post brought tears to my eyes. What a beautiful tribute to both of your beautiful daughters. I think of mine as I read through this post. I was only 21 when I had her, and we have had our share of difficult days and heartache. Our relationship is not what I would hope it to be but our Heavenly Father will work out all things. She was very much like Emme as a baby and toddler. Brought back many memories.
Your daughters are gorgeous!!
This was a beautiful post. Only Mothers know how deep a Mothers love goes. You have a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing and bringing me to tears at 8 am…:)
This is one of the sweetest posts ever.
What a gift to them both. xoxo hugs from Oklahoma
So sweet & touching. Wish our kids could see what we see in them.
Love it all! That’s about it, love it!
Happy Birthday to your sweet & beautiful girls.
What a sweet, touching post…..I have 2 sons and one daughter….she is my soul mate…..that’s sounds weird, but we have always been so close. We have always joked that with the 3 manly (& hairy) men in the house we had to cling to each other just to survive. She is 33 now and has her own 5 year old daughter and I enjoy seeing the bond we shared replicated in their relationship……here’s to wonderful, complicated, amazing daughters!!!!!
I don’t even know you and this made me cry my little eyes out! Beautifully written. Blessings to your beautiful family!
How sweet! 🙂
what a sweet video.. Happy Birthday to your girls. You have a beautiful family.
So sweet!!! Happy Birthday girls!
Thank you so much for sharing the beautiful video and words about your daughters. What a blessing! I have to tell you that I often tell my husband about things that I read on your blog and he always replies with the same “Now who is this? Do we know them?”
Thanks for always being so relatable that we feel like you are our friend!
Blessings!
Today is my daughter’s 12th birthday. She is my one and only kiddo, outside the womb, anyway, as I am carrying her little sister now (18 weeks along!).
I have always loved her fiercly, and after today’s post, you’ve simply reinforced that some of the best girls I know are born on September 10th. It’s a great day to celebrate these great kiddos! Thank you for sharing, and happy birthday to three of the most loved kids of whom I know!
Vanessa
Awww, so sweet! Nothing like a Momma’s love. <3 Happy Birthday to your beautiful girls! They have a wonderful role model to follow!
Many blessings~
Cindy
Beautiful, just like your girls… And their momma. Thank you for sharing!
happy happy happiest of birthdays to your middles!!!!
love the video my friend. love you. you’re one good mama raising wonderful people
That was just beautiful. Your girls are every bit as lovely as you are. Happy birthday to them.
~FringeGirl
What an amazing Mom you are! To have survived college with two little ones (?) then graduate, and residency with another little one, and have them turn out with such beauty and grace. It truly shows your dedication to your family and faith in His plan. Good job!! Happy Birthday to your girls – they are gorgeous 🙂
Best. Post. Ever.
Period.
Thank you for the love you share 🙂
Very heartfelt words. Happy birthday girls!!
Love the video Edie.God bless you and yours.
Love and Hugs, Trudy K
Omg that song brought tears to my eyes. who is the artist? You did a wonderful job with that video, and you have obviously done a wonderful job raising a beautiful loving family