Reposted from April 2010.
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Something is happening to her. I’m not altogether sure that she fully grasps it. It started when she quit work. And it further heightened when she brought her children home to educate them. Maybe you’d call it an epiphany. Or an awakening. Sometimes it feels more like a death or at the very least a drowning of an old fantasy.
But something very peculiar happens when you face the truth about yourself and about your life in one area; it eventually creeps into all areas of your life, invading your presuppositions and putting to death the lies under which you’ve operated for so long, drowning them in a sea of life-giving water.
It took her by surprise and she must learn to swim again. Or so she thinks. She reaches out for something familiar but even her virtues seem to have washed away. There is no sure footing. There has to be another way. Or surely she will drown.
When you allow layers upon layers to be peeled back so that all you’re left with is the nakedness of your own depravity……
When the words of Christ sink in and take hold and gnaw at you and undo you…….
He is taking you into His death. “Deep calls to deep at the roar of Your waterfalls; all Your breakers have gone over me.”
She finds it hard to breathe. She fights Him. She finds it impossible to surrender…….
And then He comes. He has made another way.
He will be the one to surrender.
And His surrender will be perfect, even to death.
His words play a melody in her heart.
He has come to give her life abundant.
how long have i been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
waters getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head
if i could just see you
everything would be alright
if i had to see you
this darkness would turn into light
and i will walk on water
and you will catch me if i fall
and i will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright
i know u didn’t bring me out here to drown
so why am i ten feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause i’m so used to living underneath the surface
if i could just see you
everything would be alright
if i could see you
this darkness would turn into light
and i will walk on water
and you will catch me if i fall
and i will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and i will walk on water
and you will catch me if i fall
and i will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and now everything is alright
everythings alright
Blessed Holy Week to you!
I remember reading this the first time you posted it and listening to that song with tears in my eyes. It still does that to me. Blessings to you, Edie.
Thank you for this post and for the song. It was needed.
Absolutely beautiful…
This just really ministered to me…….Thank you dearest Edie. May you
Continue to find Him in the depths..and in your wonderful walk with a King!
love and hugs, Nan
My prayer is that many will be blessed by your words.
I recently created Resurrection Eggs for my kiddos. You inspired me and one of the eggs was made in your honor. Come by and take a peep err peek. 🙂
http://decortoadore.blogspot.com/2012/04/vintage-inspired-resurrection-eggs.html
Hi Edie,
I have been reading here since just before you lost your house to the fire. I haven’t commented before but after reading this today i knew i had to! In MANY ways this decribes my heart and a journey i have been on for quite sometime – these words brought me to tears, they gave me hope and they showed me i am not alone! Thank you THANK YOU for posting this again for I had not read it before.
This is one of the things i LOVE about blogs – to come here and find something that ministered so much to me – you have no idea Edie – humbled and blessed today!
xoTiffany
Hi again,
Sorry, I also wanted to add – after I read the post again – that I feel you took the words right out of my heart – the words i couldn’t yet form in my mouth.
Thank you – since I have been reading here i feel i “know” you just a bit and so i hope it doesn’t sound strange if I tell you that after reading this I want to give you a BIG hug look you in the eye and THANK YOU for who you are and what you minister.
Be blessed Edie – be blessed!
xoTiffany
this is so beautifully written. I just love these days leading up to Easter when we stop and reflect on what we truly celebrate – His resurrection and our redemption. So beautifully said. LOVE your blog. Such encouragement! Happy Easter!!
I just stumbled across your website today and I am so glad I did. I came here for the diy stuff but found so much more! The Mystery of Prayer…. just what I needed!! And THIS SONG! WOW!!! DEFINITELY moving! THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SHARING!!!! This song speaks to me!